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Thank you for all of your love support and advice yesterday. I just need to take a step back and start loving myself again. He's not worth losing myself over. Thank you all for being so kind.

EXDH Re-marrying BM

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I'm so depressed. I've spent all morning in the shower crying. I just got word that EXDH who left me a few months ago for BM is remarrying her . HE could barely wait for the ink to dry on our divorce. He also will only see DD once a month for a few hours at the park because BM doesn't want her around. I thought I would be healed by now but I'm still broken.

Pathetic piece of shit!

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DH's email to me " Hey you won't respond to my calls, text , Facebook messages or emails I really need for you to hear me out. I did what I did for the girls. They deserve a shot at having their mom in their lives full time again. I could see how not having her around hurt them. The main reason BM was lashing out and pushing them away was because she felt threatened by your presence in their lives. As the mother of my first two and my first love I never really got over her . I thought I was when I found you. When you got pregnant things changed . You became distant and moody .

DH texted me.

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Thank everyone here for being here for me. I really am trying to do what needs to be done to protect me and my daughter. I cried my eyes out until 4am . My best friend has been here with me . We have been reading your messages and she has been helping me to get the ball rolling. Shutting down accounts and contacting a lawyer. I'm changing the locks today. I feel like I'm being run over by a bus. I still don't understand how anyone could do what he did to me. I truly love him but BM can have him I'm not going to grovel for that asshole,

DH is leaving me for BM

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He's leaving me with a baby for his ex wife . He left me a text message this morning letting me know he has been talking to BM for the past couple of months and that is where his heart really is and t hat he is so sorry. He packed his bags and the SD's bags while I was sleeping and he left me. I cant breath. I gave him everything . I gave birth to his child just a few months ago and he's leaving me! I'm shaking. I never meant anything to him. Yesterday everything was normal and he was so sweet . I don't understand. Why wasn't I enough. I want to die right now. I can't do this .

All right. who wants some? !

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I'm hanging on by a thread. I feel like i've been pregnant for 10 years. This little child in my belly is trying out for the gmnastic olympics. I got one SD home with the flu. A sick DH acting like a wounded bird. MIL is on her way to get on my last nerve. BM has been trying to call. I am tired ok im tired. Im going to take my big Mac and cookies into my room. I am going to pig out then try to take a nap. If anyone bothers me i might wake up screaming. I know i look a hot mess. Don't care . Please don't come over here to piss me off MIL.

BM I look a mess? Really :D

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OK I have to type this after LMAO so hard I peed a little. BM came by to get the girls for her family reunion. I admit I'm not MAXIM magazine ready. I'm four months pregnant in my sweats with a messy bun. I'm pale skinned and red faced because I'm not feeling well but come on now. I open the door and BM goes " wow you look a mess" with a little chuckle. She leaves and whispers to DH "I hope the kid looks like you". Really BM with your over inflated breast spread so far apart you could fit another boob in the space.

Weird cravings O/T: Silly blog

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I woke up in the middle of the night craving pickle flavored mashed potatoes and mustard with a side of extra salty pretzels. I silently cried when DH refused me and asked me to go back to bed. Can you believe this fool would not get up to cook for his pregnant wife! Blum 3 . So I got up and made mash potatoes drenched in pickle juice and opened a pack of pretzels and crushed them on top. We didn't have mustard but I was fine with that. I put the spoon in my mouth.

Pregnant and feeling really depressed please HELP!

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I feel like I suck as a human being and don't belong on this earth. I've pushed everyone away because I can't control my emotions. What value could I possibly be to a baby. I've messed up so much in my life. I'd be a hypocrite to raise up my kid telling them not to do all of the effed up stuff I've done. I use to do anything for the attention of a guy. I lot myself so much along the way before I found my husband. I'm even pushing him away now. I'm not happy or excited about being a mother to be honest I dread being responsible for leaving breathing human because I know I will screw it up.

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