My SS is nine and I've been part of his life for the last 3 years. In the beginning I liked the kid and grew to love him, however, somewhere along the way the love grew into resentment. It's not him really because he's a normal nine year old boy. Maybe a lot cottled by his grandmother but no matter how hard I've tried on that front the lady just doesn't get it nor will she back off. It's gotten so bad that I literally have a panic attack when I have to be alone with the boy. He's sweet and thoughtful and fights like normal with his sister. But his inability to hear and actually listen to what is being said and asked of him annoys the s*** out of me. The fact that he forgets the simpilest thing and disregards what I said grates on my nerves. His "la la" head in the clouds makes my head want to pop off. No matter how my DH and I discuss this my outlook towards the boy doesn't get any better. The logical part of my brain tells me I'm super stupid about all of this but the non-logical part almost makes me literally hate him now. I don't know why exactly because I get along really well with his sister. Am I going crazy? My DH acts like he doesn't give a crap about anything but himself. What should I do? I'm past the point in wanting to try to strengthen a bond with my SS, it seems every time I've tried he wants to run to his grandma so I've quit trying and here I am alone with him again and his constant chatter during a TV show or when I'm trying to talk to his dad on the phone wants to make me duct tape his mouth shut. Oh boy, I've gone completely nuts. Can someone help me?