i'm not ready to do this again. i took care of this child for 4 years only to have her go back to her mother and us not be able to see her hardly at all. our bond has been broken and i am being selfish maybe but i am not feeling very willing to spend all of my energy, time and money on this child again. i'm scared that the same thing will happen again, her mom will some how get her back or while we have her spend all her time interfereing and screwing things up!