I feel sooooo guilty
After 8 months of being unable to see SS20 months, Nutty McDougal finally relented and let him come to stay with the main reason being that she just had another baby and can't handle them both. DBF and I have an 8 month old little boy, so it's not like we get full night's of rest either. Anywho, SS20 months has been with us for 3 days now and all he does is CRY! I can't take it. I don't want to go home from work or stay there. My DBF had him in bed with us last night and he howled from 10:30 until midnight. Instead of DBF taking into another room, he allowed him to wake up me and the baby up. I have to be to work at 7 AM so I don't have the luxury of sleeping in or calling off because I work in a hospital. DBF really pissed me off.
I feel guilty because I can't fathom going home to listen to him crying all night, whining and simpering. I know it's what kids do SOMETIMES, but all day??? I know that he hasn't seen his dad in 8 mos., but the first night he was fine. The second day the whining starting and then yesterday the HOWLING! :? I tried to comfort him and hold him, he just wants to be left alone. DBF has tried to make me give him a bath and put him to bed, but when he's screaming, I just let him go because I don't know what he wants and obviously it's probably his crazy mom, but I don't think that we'll be inviting her over anytime soon. I just want to pack my kid up and say see you when he leaves to DBF. I feel sooo terribly guilty and angry.