AlmostGone up and went - no update
I'm not quite ready to post an update yet. Mostly because nothing has happened other than H has attempted to contact me several times. I haven't answered. I'm just taking a few days to think and do nothing right now. One thing that was said before I left that's been bothering me is he said LI was upset and crying because she wants to have a mother daughter relationship with me and I don't want to and she doesn't understand why I don't like her. Part of me feels bad but no I don't want the role of substitute mommy for the skunk ape and no I don't like her. Both these things are true. I can see she's looking for a mother figure. I can't be that for her. I don't have any children of my own. I've never been a mother. And to be honest I can't see anything of myself in her. He told her these things. Again I feel bad/selfish that I don't want the job but just caring for her basic needs and trying to get her to be self sufficient is hard enough for me. Maybe I was never meant to be with a guy who has kids? Maybe I could love someone else's kids but just not her? Either way I will never know because I will never get with a man who has kids again.