I Never Asked For This
I've been reading a lot here and it's been helping me feel like I'm not alone or crazy for my feelings, so here goes.
When my SO and I got together, his daughter was six, and I obviously knew she existed. Before that, I've been child free by choice. He had her every other weekend, and that was ok. I could deal.
Fast forward four years. Her mother moved from another city and bought a house five minutes from us. (Maybe to just torture us??) The time the kid spends at our house has increased to now two nights a week and every other weekend, plus whenever she gets a hair up her ass and just drops her off. He pays 100% of the cost of day care and $800 monthly support. That seems to be excessive since we have her at least 50%, but that's another post.
So here we are now. Her mother has up and gone to another state for family reasons for who knows how long. It's been since May with no end in sight. And now, we have her all day, every day with no breaks.
I'm so angry, and I don't know what to do. I never asked for this. I never wanted to be a full time mom. I don't actually really like the kid, she's horribly behaved and just gets under my skin. I guess it's terrible to hate a child, but I'm just so we overwhelmed and miserable.