Crying in the bathroom
Yesterday DH picked up SD12 it was 9 pm. I told my husband two days ago if we could watch some serie on netflix, ok tomorrow (yesterday). When he arrived home I asked him are we watching this serie? and he answer "Does SD can watch it too? I mean is appropiate for her age? WHAAAAAAT, I was already pissed, of course I told him that she could watch something else in her room.
In seconds he chose a movie (kids movie), I was speechless, took my phone and went downstairs to cry literally. This girl is ALWAYS in my room, all the freaking day, all the nights that she stays here apparently is mandatory to watch a movie with her in our room. I'm so over this situation. I was in the bathroom crying and DH send me a message "where are you? what are you doing?" I wanted to say a lot but I just answer "I want to be alone". I wanted to close the room door, he never closes the door when SD is around because what if she needs something or whatever so I told him that I have no privacy and he told me "safety is first than privacy"......
He knew something was wrong of course he knows all the time, he was playing the victim and he was no talking to me at all. I can't talk with him about this situation because he always takes things about SD really bad, he never wants to see the truth, SD is an angel and we are all wrong. When I try to talk about something about SD that involves me he got really mad, he stop talking to me for days and things go always worst, he does not do anything about it because you know daddy guilt.
I know is some stupid situation but I felt like something is broken inside me, I felt so sad, like I'm less and not important enough.
I know you will say oh you need to talk about this or stop this situation, but I CAN'T, I've tried over and over and is impossible.
Thanks for reading :)