This weekend was SS's first basketball game of the season (we won ) BM's Dad and Stepmom pulled in the parking lot at the same time we did. I sent SS over to say hello to them and they walked in behind us. DH, the girls and I sat down in our normal spot, and they set their stuff down a little ways down from us. BM wasn't there, yet.

I've been far from perfect in my role as a SM. For the most part I have held my tongue around SS when it comes to my REAL thoughts and feelings about BM. I have had my moments of lashing out at BM. Once, right in front of SS. I was so disappointed in myself. After the words, very LOUDLY fell out of my mouth "WHY DON'T YOU TRY BEING A MOM FOR ONCE". SS's eyes as big as can be filled up with tears "stop FIGHTING". Sadly, that 5 year old kid (at the time) was FAR more mature than I was. I felt so small in that moment. So... stupid.

BM says it about once a week. So far she hasn't actually followed through with it. She is picking SS up from school today. First time she has seen him since early last week. She text him once this weekend, I don't think she realizes that SS makes excuses not to talk to her when she makes her 1 phone call a week. "I'm in the car can't talk". He wasn't in the car. He was in his room, but himself at that exact time.

Since SS has seen or physically spoken to BM. She calls, maybe twice since then. SS sees it ringing, he doesn't answer. Happened both time she tried calling. Last night she called, he picked up his phone, saw it was her... and put his phone back down. 20 minutes later she text "I'm going to call you in a minute" he responded immediately "call later, I'm busy". We weren't busy. At all. He was sitting on the floor at our new house playing on his iPad, all by himself. She said "ok, love you" Love u too... "I miss you soooo much"... SS didn't respond. Yup, I think he is over it.