So last night, I needed to escape. I made my SD her bday dinner and actually made it thru that without her noticing all the veggies I slipped in or the fact that the noodles are whole wheat. I was exhausted. BD was with her dad, so I thought it was a good time for DH, SS, and SD to have a bonding evening to themselves. So I withdrew to my room and watched Food Network for hours. DH came up with a glass of ice water and a cup of coffee me.

I'm actually ticked off at some on this site. I came here when I had issues with my skids and even took advise with my own kids. I can honestly say I've walked away with a lot of wisdom here and felt we all share a common bond. A lot of us have horrible BM's, skids who steal, lie or do whatever they can to cause drama, disney dads who overspend the budget buying love, really horrible stuff. Recently I've just become overly upset about a skid who isn't being treated fairly, a skid who is being punished for things a bio can get away with. I really have a hard time with that.

Do people on this website really type their TRUE feelings?

I know I haven't in the past. My resentment and jealousy go way deeper than what I've admitted to.

My husband and I got in an enormous fight tonight. He broke our bed frame, and threw a beer against a wall. And left. I think he took his daughter with him.... I'm in the basement, so I'm not sure... but I'd guess he did, because I asked him to.

She hasn't done anything wrong.
Besides talking about her mother, all....the....time.
But she only does it because she lives with her mom 95% of her life.

Well, she did it. We figured from her facebook posts, and those of a friend, that she didn't go to her mother's- she went halfway across the state to visit her friends instead. Just to verify, Loghead sent Loca Grande a text about it, and she told him Princess WAS with her. Then she proceeded to send me a few texts about how we need to trust Princess, and started going off on her parenting theories.

OMG!

My stepkids are sitting reading books. Voluntarily! :jawdrop:

I feel so proud. I made them read books I assigned earlier today, as some preparation for school starting on Mon. DH was at work. But voluntarily??? On a Fri night??? Choosing the books off the shelf?? WOW!

It does help though that baby is asleep in the room they all share (so no Wii or Xbox or Videos available for entertainment), and DH is using the family computer (which is kinda like our TV) to watch basketball.

So I'm pregnant, and have to be very careful because I'm old, and I've lost a baby before. And SO had to leave on an extended trip out of the country.

SO told SS16 to keep an eye on things with me for him, hoping SS would show more responsibility than he has been lately. (SS lives less than half a mile from here with BM.)

Today, SS was supposed to come shovel the snow. He took all day to tell me whether he was coming, finally said yes, and then hadn't showed an hour and a half later as dark was falling.

SS5 has largely been afraid of our dog, and will generally leave her alone. Lately he has started to play with her, which I encourage.

I was just wondering if anyone has observed a close friend,or family member's personal perception/views of SM's,and how this impacts on their step dynamic?

Ok, so I had a long talk with H lastnight & this time he was the one that initiated the conversation, & it was NOT an argument!

I used to do yoga. Then I was bothered by the extreme quiet. That was about 10 years ago. Now I am more mature I think I would welcome it. The problem is that I can't seem to get back to that state of calm.
I am having panic attacks again. I am on meds and I don't want to increase the dose.
Everytime BM calls I get them.
The last time this was happening, I had a horrible feeling that something bad was about to happen - and it did. She countersued for child support with DH.