Step Talk

I have not been on here since I posted the now "infamous" post! Anne sent me an email this afternoon to let me know that many of you were defending me to some strange lady. I was freaked out not knowing if I was yet again being stalked out by someone of SD's other family. I just walked in and had 63 comments to read. It took a little time since I would have to stop in between tears to compose myself again. I would also stop to tell DH that "so and so" said this or that. I am amazed that I have made such life long friendships here. This site began as a curiousity and a hope that maybe I would be able to vent a little when I first became a SM. I never thought that I would become so attached to you all and would make such strong friendships and bonds. You all have gotten me (and DH) through some of the worst times of our lives. I love all of you and cannot believe how you guys rallied for me... wait a minute... yes I can. This is the same support I got when all the stuff about SD's abuse first came up. Yeah, you guys were there to keep me going through that too. You guys are not cyber friends or some people I met online. You are my extended family. I cherish all of you.

Now, when someone as this mediator lady come into our sactuary and tries to belittle me and my actions, I want to laugh. She is nobody to me and her words were empty textbook thoughts. She reacted just as every other "professional" does. She spoke without knowing and I am sure she regrets it now. Maybe in the future she will take the time to read threads before second guessing people. I could bash her all day long, but I think my girls got that covered for me! She buried herself in her own empty words. I myself know that I did nothing wrong. I did feel bad for cussing at BM because I have chosen to not do that because at one time I had a mouth like a sailor and worked hard at changing that. So I was upset with myself for that. But SD heard nothing, except her BM cussing and calling her a liar.

I also find it funny that this trouble maker came on here referring to me as OP. I am Madi's mom. Not the "other" parent. Even after checking this lady out, I still have my gaurd up about the fact that she may have some ties to BM and the wacky family. They do have extended family in that area. But that could possibl be my own insecurities and the fact they are always doing underhanded things of this nature.

As to (I cannot even remember her screen name now without going back to look at it...).... my heart goes out the clients that you have that are being wronged. If you think that a BM has more love than a SM, that might explain to all of us why you are no longer a SM and we are. And, I am not the "new" spouse. The honeymoon was over a long time ago. I have been the primary parent... not he other parent for more than half of SD's life. She has made great progress with me by her side. And the BM's drug is MY business because it is directly affecting MY daughter..... actually my daughters, because my BD sufferes as well when she sees her sister in pain. It also affects me because I am the one who takes her to doctors appointments because she was born addicted to crack and is now suffering the consequences. I appreciate the private message from you asking me to not take your posts personally, but you opened a can of worms on this site. You have no knowledge of anything that I have been through, that SD has been through, or what these wonderful people here have supported me through. I hold no hard feelings towards you because anger towards you would merely be letting you win. I understand that ignorance can lead to wrong judgements.

As for the rest of you... you all kick ass!!!!! Thanks a million.