I like to check in here every once in a while, although for a while there, it was all the time ... funny how things work out like that.
DH and I are still generally apart but he goes back to the states next month. I can't wait because the children will be back in our "control". Not that they are little variables in an experiment or anything ....
I have written letters to them since I have been gone. Phone calls were pointless. Reception was so bad where they live that it broke me apart.
DH Is taking their custody papers to a lawyer when he gets back to make sure we can get stationed overseas in the future. Can't take much of BM drama anymore. It is breaking us apart even as a family.
I don't know if she really loves her boys or if it is to get back at their father. It doesn't seem like she is that immature anymore. It seems like she loves her boys but in a couple months can someone change like that? I don't want to give in to her like everyone else. She is so terribly charming. She can seem so normal and then .... ROAR!!! .... here comes the witchy, snotty, psycho, BM that I know. The one who is jealous and rude and manipulative.
DH and I are together right now. I took my R and R to see him. It has been worth it except I am obsessed that I have not started my period and it I am normally fine. It is most likely the stress but man I hate being a woman at times.
We went swimming today. Saw a 12 year old jumping off the diving board. It reminded me of SS9. Does he have to grow up?
And then there is SS7. He was so cute when I saw him last but when I hear his voice it is like he has changed which means Not So Cute .... Aw man. He is growing too.
Don't you wish you could stop them from growing up? But then you don't want to because sometimes you are like "I can't wait til you pass this phase" like the whiny seven year old phase ....
I do...
Wish I could freeze them at certain times. SD when I first met her was so innocent and happy. BS 14 when he was a toddler because THAT was the only time he didn't argue with me!
BS 11, is turning out so wonderful that I'm constantly amazed by him every day. Though the unmotivated older brother is starting to wear off on him a little. We'll have to nip that in the bud.
And Anna....Every time I think about her growing up...I get emotional. She will be my heart breaker for sure! I have watch both my sister and her youngest daughter, the one I like to brag about because she turned out so fantastic (the older two have been extremely challenging) anyway, both my sister and my niece have gone through separation anxiety with her going to college.
It makes me think about all those parents at V Tech last year. I don't know why. But college is tough. The first time they are out of your house and completely vulnerable.
I so know what you're saying. We have to learn to embrace the future adults, but boy do we miss our little boys and girls!
Glad to hear you and your H had a nice R and R together!
"Om Tare Tutare Ture Mama Ayurpunye Jnana Putin Kuru Svaha"
~Sita Tara Mantra
Hey Cactus...
You sound good...
I'm glad to hear that your husband will be back to take care of matters. It'll set your mind at ease when there is control again.
Good to hear from you...
"For every ailment under the sun....There is a remedy, or there is none;
If there be one, try to find it; If there be none, never mind it." ~ W.W. Bartley
Glad to hear you are well
and that Dh maybe can fix some things for you guys!
Hi, Cactus ! We've Missed You ! Glad To Hear You're Still around
Hi, Cactus ! We've Missed You ! Glad To Hear You're Still around !
Maybe this is Just What You and DH Needed, and it'll Help Make Things Work Out, in The Long Run...OS Dep. can be grounds for Temp. or Perm Rearrangement of Time With The Kids, as in Y'all would get a Longer Time at Once, instead of a lot of Shorter Times...
Steve
Kids are the Best and Worst Things We can do to Ourselves. When We have nothing else worth living for, We'll go on, for Them, but Oh How We Miss Our Freedom...LOL
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