Step Talk

I was happy to meet them, happy to have them come visit and am still very happy to see them to this day. That hasn't changed in seven years. The drama surrounding the visits, though, got tough immediately and is only just now starting to ease up.

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ANNE 8102 ♥ GEORGIA

I was also happy to see SD, Anne- always right, the drama was dreaded, the worrying about what BM had concocted was almost soap opera worthy- alot of times was beyond even that.
It took a long time to get to the point of worry was waste- waste of my energy, mood and life- it never stopped anything from happening and although it did sometimes prepare me for it, I also prepared for a thousand of unnecessary things.

There is no reason where logic does not exist

I felt really really sorry for them at first. They were suffering from major abandonment issues. SD literally when thinking of her mother would sit in a corner shaking and crying. The very first day I met the kids they called me "Mommy". It was sooooo sad. I lived 2 hours away so the only time I got to see them was on the weekends and they were always excited to see me. DH and I had problems with the 2 youngest kids. He could not be out of their sight for a moment. They would freak out thinking he wasn't coming back. They are much more happier now. DH and I are their stability.

I had similar problems that a lot of people dating have with the skids. Everytime we sat next to each other and held hands to watch TV the kids would try to sit in between. It dawn on me that they wanted to be a part of any affection. So I let them. I always made sure SD and SS sat with us. When I gave DH a hug all of them wanted to have a group hug. Still to this day when I give DH a hug it turns out to be a huge group hug. I don't think it is jealousy. I think the children are really insecure and it is a kind of reassurance that they are a part of a family. Hard to explain.

"GO BACK TO YOUR BRIDGE YOU EVIL TROLL. YOU HAVE NO POWERS HERE"

I'm also glad to see them go to their moms after a long week.

I'm like that with my own kids too.

"For every ailment under the sun....There is a remedy, or there is none;
If there be one, try to find it; If there be none, never mind it." ~ W.W. Bartley

see SKIDS?

When I go into a restaurant I will not sit near anyone's children.
I avoid places like Circus Circus (Vegas), water theme parks, amusements parks, etc etc. I am an equal opportunity child avoider, so NO, I was not "happy" to see them.

I am not a biotch, in fact kids like me. I am the type of woman that kids glob onto. If there is a lost child----he will find me.

I just am not interested any more. I organize my life the way I WANT TO. I have earned that.

I am ready to be a grandmother but my biokids want kids around as much as I do. (27, 29, 30)

I give this background because I know that unless people have lived what I have lived, they think I am cynical or a biotch-----I AM JUST A REALIST.