My MIL has always been my avid supporter. She is the only one in DH's family that sees all sides of everything and never ever ever has a bad word to say about me. She's been supportive and things like that.
Her weakness, that she's still entertaining the hope that SS10 and I will bond into mommy and son. SIGH.
I don't like fireworks. Just don't like coping with the sound. So every year DH takes the kids to see them and I stay at home and away from it.
Well, we were chatting on FB. And she said SS10 will take care of you. He'll cuddle Mommy while Daddy is gone.
Oh HELL NAH. I don't want to hurt her FEE FEES, but her grandson would rather take a knife and stab me with it than hug me. Of course, if you asked him behind my back, he'd say he wuvs me to cuddle with him. On the days he's not pissed at me that is.
I'd rather go to see the fireworks, let my PTSD flare up and relive mortar attacks than turn to this crazy kid for support.
How about this folks: I take my puppy and cuddle him. How about I just focus on avoiding little thief man until I put his ass on an airplane. Then when he gets to my in-laws house, he can lie through his teeth to my MIL and tell her how he took care of me, in vivid detail. For her love, because he knows that the way to grandma's heart is how he 'takes care of his daddy and mommy and loves them'.
BLECH BLAH FUCK MY LIFE UGH!!!!
I really only talk to my MIL.
I really only talk to my MIL. She loves her grandson, and that's good. She loves me, and that's good too. But, she really wants to believe that he and I are all cuddly. Not so. But then again, no one tells her about affection and lack thereof in my home everyday. Not hers or anyone's business to be honest.
Yeah, I'm not wanting too either. But, he's maintained distance from me today. Part of his MO, he's good at avoidance in the aftermath of shit storms he causes. SIGH.
This time tomorrow, he will be with my in-laws and I will be sitting in my home kid free. Sad my hubby is gone right now!
We've never got time together without kids. SIGH.
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My IPOD says you are full of bullshit!
Same here girl. This freak
Same here girl. This freak opportunity, thank you Air Force, has allowed me to send him to the inlaws so I can work long hours. He's not mature nor responsible enough to stay at home alone, so I'm going to get the first EVER time I've EVER had alone at home since 2008.
I think I might streak butt ass naked around the house for shits and giggles. Coz I can LOL
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My IPOD says you are full of bullshit!
At the moment, I'm jealous of
At the moment, I'm jealous of the future me! Squeeeeeeee!!!!!
12 hours from now, I will be on the road!
I need a break, if you haven't figured it out. Desperately need a break. I find that breaks from SS10 keep me sane enough to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I've just had far too much of his antics since I returned from my deployment in January. It feels like it's dragged on for far longer than it has.
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My IPOD says you are full of bullshit!