So after a phone conversation with DH, it already looks like he's backing out on his word... so now I'm back with my parents and I told him that I want a divorce...
...which I don't. Honestly right now I don't know what I want.
He told me the first time I threatened to leave over this mess with Junkie that if we were to ever find another piece of evidence that proves he is still doing drugs, that we would call the police together. Now he says that he was just angry and doesn't know if he could do that. That promise was basically the only reason I stayed and now he's backing out of it.
He's going to continue to baby this kid until there is no hope for him. I don't know what else I can do at this point besides leave. I don't want to. I still love DH and I don't want to leave YSS and SD. But what kind of compromise can I make here if he's going to back out of everything we try to agree on?
A few messages have made me question whether or not this is me blowing something out of proportion. Does anyone think I'm being too harsh with this kid? I know that pot isn't as bad as meth or heroin. I know that! But if any of you knew this kid and had seen the shit we've had to put up with for the past three years, you would understand why I've lost pretty much all trust in him at this point! He keeps getting worse and worse and what's really bad is that no one seems to want to put the brakes on it but me! He lies and manipulates and after a few months of peace... BAM! And every time it's something worse! What's going to happen next: pregnancy? I've already read about his friend trying to get him laid, so is that next? Am I going to have to raise another kid that's not mine? Or maybe he'll get sick of pot and try cocaine, since he also admitted to "hearing about it" at his school! Or since BM is getting him a crossbow (rrrrrREALLY smart move!), maybe his next move will be killing someone! Will anyone punish him then, or will that be a one-time thing too?
WHERE ARE THE BOUNDARIES WITH THIS EFFING KID?!?!