Step Talk

just me and my son
we could go to some hampton inn or sleep inn, or something that's kind of cheap, just to get away, eat some junk food, watch a movie, use the pool and go to sleep.

without the skids messes, giving skids rides here and there sd taking my car
ss screaming at his xbox, H's ex calling the phone, sd asking me to buy expensive takeout, ss constantly asking me to cook for him, sd asking me where things are before she even bothers to look for them, no waking up super early to get ss to the bus stop just some time alone with my bio kid.

but if i did that, all hell would break loose.

sd would think maybe i was cheating on her dad

they would be pissed that i wasn't home in case one of them needed something

they'd be pissed that i spent money on a hotel when i could just sleep at home

they'd be pissed that i did something with my son and didn't invite them

h would probably also think i was cheating

they would say i left ss "home alone"

who would wake him up for the bus stop?

who would feed them and do their laundry?

it doesn't matter that H leaves all the time

it doesn't matter that their real mother lives right across the street and has all the free time she wants

it doesn't matter that SD goes on vacation at least three times per year, even though she has zero accomplishments and is totally undeserving.

and to top it all off, I'm working with a lady I can't stand. I love everyone I work with except this one super annoying woman. who constantly tries to pass off her work on to me, and is always sticking her nose in my business.

and she just walks in my office without knocking and looks at what i'm doing on my computer and stands over me telling me what to do, even though she isn't my boss and i don't work for her!

but one piece of good news- the scale this morning said 117 pounds.

I think when I started this blog, I was about 132, on a 5'2 frame.

so this is good....it's still 117 jiggly and untoned pounds, but it's an improvement