I am so fed up. I feel powerless. I mean, work is rough here but I like my job so it is worth it but I cannot arrange times to talk to the boys or DH. Just because his job is really sham does not mean mine is! I am so annoyed that he is making demands and nagging me. He doesn't understand. I am turning off my emotions so I do not feel pain and he doesn't get it.
The boys can't talk to me anyway so why bother trying? I don't want to deal with their mother! I am sure this is what she wants but dammit ... like waves pushing against a rock and eventually wearing it away ... that is me. I can't keep fighting her and I give all the energy I have to work.
In the end, what matters? Work brings me a satisfaction that I can't explain but at what cost? My family? I don't know why I let myself do this but it works for me. I just wish he would understand.
Why?
Submitted by Cactus30 on Fri, 02/15/2008 - 11:11am.» Cactus30's blog | 216 reads



















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