I shouldn't be complaining I've had so much time without SS8. Now I kind of understand people who only have step kids on weekends or part time. His crazy mother has spent two weekends with him now before she disappears again. Well one being this coming weekend. And her mother had him last night so we actually went on a real date. Everyone wants to see him around Easter. It's been great!!! SO and I are doing so well and I love all the time alone with him. Feels like we actually have a relationship with each other. The kid is coming home tonight I'm not excited about it actually I'm dreading the whole thing. I should be thankful for the time is had away from us. I'm not looking forward to having to share or having the attitude that he's been away and Now he'll want his dad all to himself. SO has started treating him more like a child instead of an adult. I can only hope that tonight won't be hell. I realize what a burden he is to our relationship when he is here. How you changes the whole energy of the house to negative. How it's extremely uncomfortable sometimes and anxiety provoking. Even anger provoking with his attempts to get unnecessary attention. It might sound bad but I don't want to have to be nice to him today. I will be nice but I just don't want to. He's caused us so many problems so much just and irritation. Maybe he'll be loving today I don't know I just don't have the patience or the energy for the negativity. I want to enjoy the house and our lives. I wish he would just relax and not stressing out so much not try so hard to break us apart. Enjoying the quiet moments I got off early today. I don't even want to disengage because somehow it gives him more power. Instead of forcing him to deal and move on and get over it.