I'll try to make this short and sweet. I'm just really really frustrated at this point.
I've had a migraine for the past three days. I'm sick and tired of my DH. (yeah, it's more like meaning damn husband at this point... I'm not kidding about it meaning dead husband if it keeps continuing...)
Lately, I've been quite invisible it seems. He makes plans, never bothers to tell me what's going on, yet they involve me somehow, if I dare ask him a question, you would think that I accused him of murder the way he snaps at me. He either just ignores my question, doesn't respond, so I think he doesn't hear me, because he sooo often used to yell at me... I DIDN'T HEAR YOU... so I repeat myself, thinking nothing of it, and he snaps his answer back at me. So, of course that makes me upset, so I just either walk away from him, or snap back at him... I just asked you one freaking question. You didn't answer me, I THOUGHT you didn't HEAR me, since you DIDN'T answer me. I just want to leave. I am at a point now that I am getting crushed in this relationship, I just want to cry, and I know the reason I have this damn migraine is because of the stress going on.
I have no migraine medicine, and I've tried everything that I'm suppose to... so finally it's to a point that I just don't care what I try, as long as it works at this point. I'm not going anywhere, and so I asked- politely- my DH to get me a glass of wine. I figured that maybe a little wine and bath would help, you know to relax the muscles, ease tension, whatever at this point. I'm just going to go to bed anyway... so I ask him if he would get me a glass. He doesn't respond to me, so I think... oh, he didn't hear me. I ask him again, and he snaps at me as if the world came crashing down on him... so I snap back at this point... "You know, I have had a migraine for the past three days, I asked you one f-in question, you didn't answer me, I asked you again because I thought you didn't hear me, at least f-in talk to me..." He of course now is pissed at me, and won't get me one freaking glass of wine.
And has the gale to say he doesn't know that I have a headache... WTF?!?! He's known for the past three days... I guess maybe I need to start treating him like he treats me.
And at this moment... my SS is at a birthday party at a neighbors. I just went to simply ask him one f-in question again... like... Are you picking SS up? I mean, I was very careful with my 'tone' because I didn't want him blaming me AGAIN. (I don't know what the plans are, I wasn't sure if he went to bed, or what, so I went to go check, since he just walked off- haven't seen or heard from him for a couple of hours.) He just arrogantly says to me... YEAH I GOT IT TAKE CARE OF... without looking at me, waves his hand at me like sho fly... I mean, I have just had it with this. I really have. I can't read his f-in mind, yet I guess I'm suppose to magically grow ESP and just KNOW what's going on.
Yet, if I say anything, I'm the bad one... it's always my fault. Me.
Oh, and I got my own damn glass of wine, I think I'll leave that on the counter and just take the bottle with me instead, and cry in the bath tub... 
Oh yeah...
and to top it all off... I poured myself a glass a wine, headed to the bathroom for a nice relaxing bath, right... fill up the tub, only to step in it and find out... no hot water... thanks guys. That was swell.
Have you tried using
Have you tried using Excedrin Migraine Headache medicine? That one always works for me. It may take up to an hour to work, but it finally kicks in. It is a godsend for me, when I get those damn migraines.
Yeah, I can't take Excedrin
too much caffeine in it. It makes my heart race, so I have to be careful with some of the stuff out there. I can take Tylenol products, Ibuprofen, and Alive. But not too much over the counter stuff. I can only take Benedryl or Sudafed when it comes to sinus stuff because the rest is just too much, so sometimes I try the children's stuff and sometimes that works well for me. Not always. I need to get a refill on my migraine medication, I just haven't yet. And of course, I'm paying for it. I've just been so fatigued lately. Usually a sign my heart is working overtime due to stress.
I have an irregular heart rate. It's sorta like a murmur, which my mother has. My grandmother has tachycardia, and I have in essences, both. (Thanks.) I have sinus arrhythmia and an AV block where my 'value' is leaky. So, I have to avoid stress- yeah, not much I can do there- caffeine, and alcohol, but I'm allowed a glass here and there... of course, not the whole bottle! LOL
Thanks though. My husband takes Excedrin, he says it works great for him. The last time I took Excedrin was 10 years ago, and I fainted in a store. I was so embarrassed, that I never took it again.
DH = Dickhead
Poor Step Mom! Men can be such asses. I know we're not much better, sometimes, but jeez!
I think you need a girls-only weekend. Plan something with your mom, your sister, your friend, whomever, and have an old-fashioned sleepover, complete with maniucures, pedicures, facials, drinking, eating, watching chick flicks and trashing men. (NOT at YOUR house, obviously.) Pack a bag, spend one or two nights away and tell him you need a break and will be at so-and-so's house or whatever hotel, here's the number if you should learn how to speak while I'm gone.
~ Anne ~
P.S. If you are within a four-hour drive of Connecticut, I'm in.
Thanks Anne..
I wish I could. Sounds great! But I'm sorta in the same boat as you. I don't have a whole lot of friends and the ones I do have are just too busy, we're more like associates anyway. I just don't have that social network like I used to have when I was single, since now my focus is all on SS and my husband. I never really had a close group of female friends.
If I had some money, believe me, I would take a drive up the mountains and spend some quality time alone for once. I really do need it. I did try to make the best of it last night, and I did give myself a pedicure, despite the bath water being cold. I just waited for more hot water, and refilled the tub, so instead of one glass of wine, I had two! LOL.
I just think that sometimes my husband is sooo focused on him that he forgets that you know, there are others in the house. And me being the only female, makes it just worse for me, since I don't have someone who can relate. My mother does her best, but I don't want to burden with my frustrations, even though she tries to just listen. Right now, she's in TX for a show.
I want to do some sewing, but wouldn't you know that as soon as I move all my stuff out of the spare room, organize, and situate it, my husband decides it's time to knock out the ceiling! Uh, excuse me! Can you first let me cover my $1000.00 machine before you ruin the computer inside! (It's not even mine in the FIRST place! Geesh!) So, now I have sheets draped all over everything, and I can't get to anything that I WANT to do. I really would just like to take that slug hammer and see how he likes it.
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