Geez,
My frustration level is near the limit. DH complains about the time on the net, but the dial up service is soooooo bad, that my posts keep getting blown up, and even looking at websites, the server keeps going down.

Well, I haven't written in a couple of days. My middle thru lower back have been stiff and painful because of the amount of lifting and chopping work I've been doing to get rid of that tree that fell over. I can't afford to just throw it away--wood is too valuable here in the wintertime.

It has already started to be a significantly difficult weekend. The heat seems to be here to stay.....meaning that the humidity does start to kick up and we have these "heat storms" accompanied by some wind, but no rain. My husband came home yesterday, which was Friday. I waited for him to change into shorts, which in itself, seemed like forever. I had taken the dogs out at a little after 4 p.m. We left the house to get a sandwich to eat shortly after 5 p.m. The wind was blowing but didn't seem to be blowing very hard. We weren't even gone an hour. When we came home to let the dogs outside, the wind had apparently been strong enough to sway the flowering peach tree that was at least 15 years old, and split the tree in two. I had cracked in half, literally and was quite a mess, leaving us plenty to clean up for days to come. There are now branches everywhere as well, aside from the fact, that the overhang on the remaining side, will probably need to be cut back by a professional landscaper, since we can't reach it, or that will fall and crack as well. It is standing about a good fifteen feet or so in front of our pool fencing. The heat has remained at about 100 degrees; my husband has been cutting with the chain saw, and I have been pruning with the loppers, and pruning shears as fast as I can go. Both of us are absolutely exhausted and it doesn't even look like we've even made a dent.

Well, I have seen some interesting reads lately on the blogs, and as I have been driving thru town, also seen some interesting stuff. Never question what you see in the South. You don't want to know, because if you ask, you'll get an answer that you'll never understand. I got a real taste of things yesterday at "Mayor's Court". And the smiley face wasn't because it made me smile, it was a joke! Good grief! I feel like Lucy the Psychiatrist, from Peanuts, on Charlie Brown. My sign reads, "The Doctor Is In."

Well, small towns can really be a killer. We just got back from "Mayor's Court" and were officially violated with the cost of a speeding ticket. My husband had a ticket for 50 in a 35 mph zone, first offense ever, ticket cost was $110 plus surcharges, total was $152, plus we had to get his DL copy ahead of time which was $30, which cost us $182.00. The court session was the most ineffecient, out of date, backwards thing you'd ever seen. My husband was the only one that left without getting probation, and we had to go to an ATM to get cash to get a money order to pay his ticket and fees. Unbelievably, they don't accept personal check, debit card, or credit card. Court didn't start till 4 p.m. We were there from 4 p.m. until 7:30 p.m. You have never seen justice like this until you've seen it here in a small town in the south. It is million times worse, and more of a joke than Dukes of Hazzard. I so cannot believe that we were subjected to such a thing. I would rather than the money had been given to charity than to such a farce. The characters were laughable, even with the Judge calling the Police Chief, not too bright. And here I am in this town of 2500 people. What am I doing here? It's no wonder that I close the doors, and lock the house, so I don't have to see any of the people around me. They actually had an elderly woman who tried to pull off that she was senile so she could try and get buy with selling liquor without a license. And while I was going home, I found out that she lives about a mile from my house. You can't imagine how good that makes me feel.

It's been a couple of days since I've written down any lengthy thoughts. But I have viewed and written comments in others blogs, as I have virtually relived some events many times over in reading your sites. So, I empathize with many of you.

Well, I have been still looking for a job but everything is so far away. The gas prices keep going up, and we are at least 30 miles from the city where most of the work just starts. Life around here is mostly focused on agricultural farms and manufacturing work which pretty much leaves me out. I can't drive a tractor and I know nothing about industry. I am really trained for the wrong vocation around here. It gets to be pretty frustrating, because available jobs are so few and far between, and I'm not local. So, you get turned down before you even step thru the door. And my SD's support plus all the ridiculous medical bills she is wracking up as a hypochondriac is really wearing on me.....I hesitate to even purchase my own medication that I truly do need for my high BP and heart arrythmias, as they are expensive. Overall, we are paying a minimum of $800 per month now, which is pretty sickening, and disheartening.

The old adage goes, fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me!! Here it is....now Friday night and still waiting to hear from SS about plans to stop off sometime over the weekend to see his Dad.

Well, We had 2 phone calls this afternoon on the landline. No messages, but stepson called twice. Then he called and left a message on my cell wanting to know if he could stop off and visit on his way back from leave going back to his military base in FL. I told husband to call him and figure things out. I am not going to deal with this anymore. Husband will not discuss any issues with SS regarding SD or ex. And SS will mind his own business. I have nothing to discuss with SS at all. I am still very angry and upset. But I think that since he (SS)is driving within 2 hours of us, that he should stop and see his Dad. Who knows when he will see him again? He already missed his Dad's BD yesterday. I don't know what to expect, but my husband can deal with the fallout this weekend. And if SS doesn't like it, there's always the door.

I can't believe it! The new attorney is actually doing follow thru to make sure information is getting to the internet providers to make sure the blog sites are getting shut down. I just got a "cc" on an email he just sent today, which was actually a complete shock to me. Could believe that somebody was actually doing some work. That's new.

Well, we're making some progress. I just got email confirmation from xanga.com and they just shut down SD's site. I think that the myspace.com site was also shut down as a result of the attorney's letter, as well. It helps some.

Well, it is my husband's BD tomorrow. We are technically "on vacation" but the cell number is not changed. But I don't expect that even SS will be big enough to call his Dad to wish him a Happy BD. I am rather annoyed with him anyways from this other mess from SD and his lies, rather than being honest. And SD will not talk to my husband, unless he apologizes. He has said, hell will freeze over first, as he did nothing wrong. And he is now absolutely furious, after the defammation incident, saying she just completely crossed the line. Oh, by the way, she considers me to be power hungry, and egotistical. Besides all the rotten other stuff she posted. And my husband is telling me to just forget about both of the kids and move on. How does he do it? I just can't get over the stuff my SD wrote and has said about me. It hurts terribly. How do you block out something like that? Drink? How can anyone do something so horrible....even to your enemy? People are supposed to have morals. It gives me such an incredible headache. I can't accept it. But I am going to try and have a good day tomorrow.

Hi all,
Well, if I were in the UK, I'd be saying, "bloody hell, I've had my husband underfoot for 2 days, with 8 more to go! He is on vacation from work and will be home with me so this should be pretty interesting. I sent him out to go swimming a couple of hours ago to keep him busy. I'm not used to having him around like this and it will probably drive me over the edge by lunchtime tomorrow.

Well, it's no wonder that ex-husband's just want to put a noose around the ex-wives necks and just pull! 'Cause I'm about ready to do that myself! Seriously I can barely stand this incoherent rantings and ravings from my husband's ex-wife. And if they go on much longer, I think I'll have to get a restraining order. She's a lunatic. I am completely about ready to lose my sanity now. My husband is flying off the handle, flipping out for no reason at all. He has the dogs frightened. So, I have the pressure from that. Then, I have all these ravings and rantings from "the lunatic". She sends letters thru the postal system, and then emails loaded with nasty remarks, and legal threats to sue for lack of support. She's crazy. I'll probably have to get the phone number changed again. She's taking so much drugs, I don't think she's even on the same planet. She's still recuperating from her back surgery and has been as high as a kite. I just sent her an email telling her we'd be on vacation for 10 days. (Don't call us-we'll call you) Then told her to discontinue using my email till further notice. If things continue like this, I have no idea how I'll be able to handle it for the next 11 months.

I feel like I need to get body armor these days. I did receive the advance email copies from the attorney, which looked fine to me, however, I believe that my husband's ex, will probably hit the roof. I also received an email from my husband's ex, in which she tried to ream me a new hole. I'm sure you an interpret that for what it is. Two pages worth. And all that was before I went downstairs and my husband pulled off another screaming temper tantrum. I just can't take anything else. If I knew where to go, I'd be there already. I don't know what will be my salvation, the tears of frustration just keep coming. The dermatitis is back, I am itching, I have had a migraine for five days, and all I can say is the world is a very unfair place. I do have a job interview tomorrow so maybe for some reason God was watching out for me, because I applied for it months ago, and sent my resume in. I just threw out my copy of the letter that I sent to accompany the resume yesterday because it was so long ago. I got a letter from the company because they couldn't reach me by phone because I had changed my number. Go figure! And now, tonight my husband found out that my stepson was telling this huge lie to us about talking on the phone so that all the progress that was made is now down the tubes. B/C he isn't even going to confront him, he just isn't going to have any contact with him again because he completely distrusts him. It was a real bad move my SS made, lying to us, especially to me and his Dad, about something about his Dad's wife. I think most of you know that's a big faux pas. Or I think many of you have similar views to mine. But, I think it will be quite awhile before SS gets enough nerve to call and that will only be when he goes back to work after his leave is up. So, I am exhausted and miserable and guess that I am pretty blessed to just be living with my 3 dogs now.