She is going to have heart surgery. I need prayers.

Man, if it's not one thing, it's another. I just can't win, can I? The stress load is really wearing on me. At least I will be flying in to see her soon...

I just thought that you my ST friends would get a laugh out of this...

I just walked in to the livingroom, and my mother, which is practically in my dad's lap, with both their noses pressed up to a laptop screen. As soon as I enter the kitchen, which is adjacent to the livingroom (open floor plan), they both immediately had this sheepish grin.

My BIL is shipping out to Iraq in July... this just sucks.

It has been about five weeks since I left my husband. It has been one long road.

I find myself an emotional mess right now. I can't stop my brain from replaying over and over the things that he said, things that I said, did, etc. And I can't stop myself from crying.

It's been three weeks now, neither STBX nor myself have spoken to each other. It's been a LOONNNGGG three weeks for me being at my parents, btw. I've been applying to any and all job listings I find in my 'expertise', but haven't heard anything back from anyone... even called temp agencies, but they haven't gotten back to me either. The market is really slow there, I hear. Uggh... I need to find something to keep my mind from wondering. I may get a part time retail job as a temporary, if I don't get any call backs next week. There are a LOT of new retail shops popping up (new mall) by my parents. At least that will give me an income to save, and do things when I want.

About a month ago, I joined my SS's soccer club's Board as their webmaster. The board was elated to have me join. With the recent events, I don't know what I should do. I don't want to drop this club like a hot potato just when they got all excited and I worked so damn hard on their website rebuild. But, tomorrow is a Board Meeting, and before the board meeting is a club fund raiser event that I know my STBX will be attending. At the same time, BM will be there too, and it's going to be an awkward deal due to the fact that I won't be around to pick up SS from school... guess who STBX is going to call to pick him up... I can only imagine BM, since she's 'right around the corner'.

Due to the recent events, I have decided to change my name. So...

I decided that Retired was appropriate. Thanks!

Retired (StepMom)

Just so that others know... nothing more.

Okay, now I do need some of your help...

I know for a fact that my DH will come calling on me to 'settle' in attempt to get 'his babysitter' back come Saturday or Sunday, when he realizes that his son is coming for his week. Fortunately, Saturday, I am going out. My friends are taking me to lunch and a movie (we're going to go see Maid of Honor.)

I have left my husband. Please pray for me for the strength I really need it tonight.

can't talk more.

I don't.

My DH works on Sundays, so it was me that got the kids up and dropped them off to their respective mothers. Not a word from either one of them, and they know what day it is. But, I don't expect much from them. It really was my husband that I am upset with...

On cue, we have the summer mayhem happening this year. It's not really bad, but it sure is damn annoying and you know. I like to b!tch about it to a wider group of ladies who have "been there, done that" and certainly can relate to my whining- instead of my husband. LMAO!!!

Well, it's been months since I last was here. I was wondering how some of you, who know me, are doing?

Anyways, just saying hi. Anyone out there still from the 'old gang'?

Okay, so I'm a little late with wrapping of the gifts... this week has been pretty busy for me, the last couple of days I haven't been home, and the kids have been home... so, today I finally have the house to myself, and I got to wrapping gifts.

I've got a quick question...

Presently, my DH and I are 'fighting'.... how I know, he acts like a woman and does the whole 'silent treatment' thing, it's actually quite comical and I'm enjoying the peace right now.

I mean it's really pathetic, petty and minuet. But, I really am kinda like feeling like a dunce being that I don't have reason to b!tch much anymore... I guess I'm having withdrawals from the historic hair pulling rants I've had in the past that just left me flaming from BM's constant retaliation... I mean, nothing was ever easy.