long time no speak

im doing great still seem to have found inner peace i feel all clensed of the negative energy

im due to move to MY new house on the 30th of sept

and the kitten is doin

my life is moving forward

i have put an offer on a flat they have accepted and i should be moving in in 4-5 weeks

im much happyier

my socail life is back on track and i have no worries wha

im off out (yes i know again) tonight ill make sure i enjoy myself and think of all of you lot when im singing RESPECT on kareoke later. that seems to be my fav at the min that and chesny hawkes i am the one and only it defo makes you fgeel better and can do it when your sad

is the step parenting thing easyer when the kids is only a baby when you meet the dad?????????????

well since there seems to be a lot of comments about splitting up at the min and i really have no energy to post on them all i thought id say this just once as id like to offer my advise

it has now been six weeks since i became single and i have no found happiness it was very very hard at frist i didnt know how i was to survive i just wanted to die.

id just like to say im feeling much better now and to take back all stupid comments i said about nto leaving cos the pain is to much well im much happier now and see the pain was not only nessecary fo

hello all im back do not intend to stay long im still not feeling to good hope evry one is ok and hanging in i see i have a lot of reading up to do

im of to the docs today to get a sick note so i wont be in work will be off for a while i will try to get on the net when i can. i just do not feel like im on this planet right now not sure if its the pills of its normal but i not doing much good being at work going to get some rest and go get my nails done and stuff

i seem to be ok at the min its being inside the house that gets me i sit by the window like a lost soul waiting for my sailor to return home.

my heart condition has flared up due to the stress so my doc has me over dosing on all my pills as she had no choice it was that bad. its still bad now but better. not sure what day he is comeing round to talk on but i cant wait its either over or its not. as im unsure of what we both want at the min and this is driving me insane.

well i know im really weak but i just cant handle it i have asked him to come back, stay in the spare bed and see if we can figure things out !!
i couldnt handle all the pain and i do love him and wa

had a really bad night last night. hardly slept at all !

everythime i got to sleep i was dreaming of him now i think id be ok if these bloody dreams of him would sod off who needs a constant remin

but im just so f**king angry right now i have to let this out

just found out that he has got a flat and isnt living with mates i feel so used !!!!

and i hate it !!

thank you to every body that has supported me usually i woul;d be on this site all day at work just popping in and out leaving my opinions but i dont think i want the constant reminder of the fact ive just split up with my blended familey at the min. maybe in a week or so when im a little more happy hey things can only get better (dont you just love take that )

hes gone

im absolutly heart broken and could do with some nice words

i got home from work on thursday to fine he had taken everything and left me a note on teh table how cowardly

the wo

that is really annoying me at the min is when it was skids b day the skids the Bm my BF and Bms sister and kids all went out for a meal and i didnt get included it made me really feel shit and theres another b day comeing up and dont know what to say if the situation happens again