Sia's blog

Hey Colorado Girl

Thu, 04 Sep 2008 10:08:55 -0700

I was thinking about you the other day and wondering about a few things. Has anything ever happened in the court cas with your ex? Has there been any progress? Also, I was thinking about the young girl that passed away that you were friends with.

Waiting for the other shoe to drop....

Thu, 21 Aug 2008 08:52:38 -0700

I am really trying very hard NOT to be negative, b/c I generally am NOT a negative person, but I seem unable to shake this feeling I have. A little background....in Feb, SD16 went to live with BM. The day after DH got home from the hospital last week, SD called and wanted to come home. She said she hated it at BM's (no surprise to us). I reluctantly agreed to it out of guilt more than anything else. Dh had just been in a bad accident, and I was just so glad he was alive, that I probably would have said "yes" to just about anything. I also felt sorry for SD. Long story short, BM refused to take her to the hospital to see her dad and called her everything in the book just b/c she wanted to see DH. Yes, BM is mentally ill (seriously).

Horrible yet amazing week...

Thu, 14 Aug 2008 06:12:59 -0700

This week has been absolutely one of the worst, yet best weeks of the year thus far. This is going to be long, so read on if you dare!

Monday, DH & our BS's were breaking down camp from the long weekend they took to go fishing/camping in the southern part of KY, at least 100 miles away. I was working, yeah for me? So, about 11, DH calls to say that they were just about finished, and would be heading home in about an hour. Ok, fine. Hour passes and my cell rings at work (usually DH). It is not DH, but my BIL. BIL & SIL had gone along with their children as well. I knew something was wrong if BIL was calling me, as we dont really get along that great. He says DH has been in a really bad accident and is being taken by ambulance to a local yocal hospital, then proceedes to ask for his insurance card??? I question him more and find out that DH fell 12 ft off the back of the boat he had just taken out of the water, landed sideways on a picnic table and then landed in gravel. GREAT. You really have to know DH to understand how panicked I was. DH is about on his last life. About every couple of years, we go through something like this, where he has a life/death situation and lives, of course. He has a nickname of "Morris" around the firehouse b/c of all his "accidents" and his use of his 9 lives. Anyway, he was unconscious (sp?) for a while, so when EMS got there, they thought he had internal injuries. Lucky for me, the paramedic who was working that day was a friend of mine from Louisville and was just picking up some extra shifts down there. He called me and told me they were stat-flighting him to UL hospital (level 1 trama). I KNOW what this means, I am an EMT. Things are NOT good.

I have a challenge for all SM's

Wed, 30 Jul 2008 16:51:11 -0700

I have been reading a lot here about the crappy BM's (no pun intended) that we all have. I was just reading CG's blog about the BM and her way of dealing with her. It got me thinking about trying to see BM in a different light??? If at all possible right???? Trying to be more positive...stay with me....

OK, I have finally had a chance to respond

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 07:52:44 -0700

to GC and ST's blogs about life....then I read Karma's blog about Blossom. Then I just sat here and cried like a baby, and it sort of changed what I am going to write about it....
First, Sita, I think I also attract "drama". It seems to find me where ever I go. I have tried many different methods, and nothing really seems to work. I also have a "friend" story to share about as well. Back when Bs10 was about 1 yr old, I met a girl with whom I was drawn to at the firehouse. I guess because she was another female there and also had children. She was outgoing, like myself, and seemed to be generally a happy person. We became fast friends and did tons of things with our kids together, etc. DH did not like her nor her DH, so little time was spent w/the Dh's. After a while, she became annoying. Always complaining about something in her life, but never really would take the steps to correct what ever she was complaining about. It got old fast, and I finally had enough. During all these years, I was raped when I was pregnant w/BS8. She was not there for me at all. She was too wrapped up in her own drama. I went through that awful experience basically w/out a friend. I didnt tell anyone but my therapist and my aunt who raised me. (Eventually I did tell DH). This brought up other problems for me and DH, not being able to cope. We almost divorced, but where was my friend???? MIA that's where. I finally wrote her a letter letting her know that she was never there for me and I had to cut it off. It was hard for me to do, mostly because I, too GC, am a people pleaser. Then several months ago, she found me on myspace. I thought since about 4 yrs had past, that maybe she had changed, so I gave her a chance. No change at all! So, I just reply if she send me an email, but that's basically it. It just wasn't meant to be. Another friend I have known since I was divorced from my 1st husband also recently reconnected, and it has been the healthiest thing I have done in a while, for myself anyway. I had to cut her loose after my BS8 was born b/c she ran off with some guy and got married and left town. She had been staying with me at the time b/c her boyfriend had beaten her up and we were concerned that he may have kidnapped her something awful when she didnt come home after 2 days. I filed a police report and everything. That pretty much did it for me. She also contacted me via myspace around the same time the other friend did. I figured since it had been about 7 yrs since we had spoken, that it would be good. She has made major life changes, and is the kind of friend I would keep forever. She realized all of her mistakes and short comings and worked through them and has turned out a much happier and well rounded person than she previously had been. For this I am grateful!

Ok ladies, I need to bitch for a while....

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 15:53:18 -0700

I know I hardly ever blog anymore, b/c I haven't needed to since SD16 moved back in w/the nutjob. Since Saturday, there have been a few issues I am struggling with and would like some help with.
As I posted in an earlier blog, SD's GP's live around the corner from us, sheer co-incidence, trust me.. anyway, she spends a LOT of time there, b/c nutcase only wants her around at the beginning of the month when the government issues her check. That is the only reason she ever wanted those kids around anyway, for the cash.... Anyway, we haven't seen SD since she moved out in Feb, and DH has only spoken to her a few times.

Something different to think about....

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 16:43:24 -0700

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure,

It is our Light, not our darkness, that frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?

INO a few opinions

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 16:02:44 -0700

please....
I am perplexed by DH's relationship w/sd16. I know he is entitled to whatever type relationship he chooses to have w/her and v/v. However, he complains about her not calling him, (since she moved out in Feb) and her lack of concern for her 2 brothers (our bs'). She also never comes by to visit him, even though her maternal grandmother lives less than a block down the street???? She visits her regularly.

OK another name change....

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 18:31:45 -0700

I had to change my screen name, b/c as someone posted, you can go to google and read your posts......not good, so I am now Sia, in honor of my cat "Sia" who was Siamese (hence the name Sia). I had to have her put to sleep last Friday, I miss her so.....

No Show

Sat, 07 Jun 2008 19:15:41 -0700

I am very angry and disappointed in Sd16 today. It was my BS (her 1/2 brother) party today for his tenth birthday. He asked me if we could invite SD, I reluctantly said OK, it is after all, his party, not mine. DH calls her two days ago and asks that she come. She said she would be there and was looking forward to seeing her brothers. NO SHOW / NO CALL. After the party was over, and all the guests had gone, DH called her to ask why she didn't show up. It was about 4 pm by this time (party was at noon). She was still in bed!!!! UGHHHHH. BM has successfully turned this child into herself. My son was so disappointed, as he hasn't seen her since she moved out in Feb (except briefly one day in May). What a self-centered child. I know all teenagers are self-centered, but this reeks of BM.

The grass wasn't greener

Fri, 16 May 2008 17:32:24 -0700

on the other side. Hehehehe. All I can do is laugh, and I will go to hell for it some day!!! SD16 called DH today and was crying about how BM's isn't quite the place she had in mind when she demanded to move in with her. For those of you who are aware of the situation, you remember all the trouble she caused. All the trouble she caused, I'm positive, was her trying to get us to allow her to go with BM. Last week, my therapist said she would "bail out" of that situation soon, and sounds like she has. BM made all these empty promises, and obviously didn't fulfill any of them. I love it. Mean, mean stepmom. I'm glad she is understanding that she really didn't have it so bad here.

Happy Mother's day

Sun, 11 May 2008 05:40:55 -0700

to all of your ladies. We are all mother's to our skids, whether or not they live with us. Have a great day!

Divorce Poison

Wed, 07 May 2008 16:28:44 -0700

I have been reading this book called, DIVORCE POISON, and I find it extremely helpful. It is about PAS (parental alienation syndrome). Has anyone else read it, and if so, what are your thoughts? It

Yep, that didn't

Sun, 04 May 2008 16:28:22 -0700

last long. SD is refusing to take DH's phone calls. Well, I guess we should be glad this lasted a little over 24hrs. Hmmmm, what's next? DH is so sad now. This is so hard to watch him go through and know that I can't do anything about it.

SD's baby

Sun, 04 May 2008 08:21:05 -0700

Well, SD had her baby yesterday....Derby day here. Dh only knew because he called the local hospitals because I had that feeling.... Sure enough she delivered at 5 a.m. So, with my encouragement, he went to the hospital.