he met yesterday with the realtor, and is really putting the house for sale

he's leaving friday for another one of his 3 weeks trips, so i am going to be the person who has to show the house and deal with the realtor. how strange.

"My dad better not expect me to put gas in my own car now that I have a job- I am not using my own money to put gas in my car, I am not putting gas in my own car."
Therefore, we drove mine, because I was out of gas, too, but I AM expected to use my own money to put gas in my own car.

ok so yesterday, I came home from work, and she was sleeping on the couch.
H was gone and SS was relatively quiet, so I decided to take a nap(when H is around I can't do this, or he'll say I'm lazy)

he didn't get into the special program in israel.

i guess they can appeal, but h doesn't think it will work.

i won't say anything, but i wonder if h can see that failing to teach responsibility to a kid ends up creating a situation where the kid's opportunities become limited.

you guys who have asked how I'm doing, and were so nice, i'm sorry about not replying right away. I was still just tired of writing, and I'm thankful for your thoughts and still thinking about alot of you, and reading as much as I can about what's going on in your lives. Not much has changed in mine.

It's been a really nice thing to be able to come to steptalk and vent about my feelings about things that are going on at home.

As I've stated before, the goal was to have an account of things that happened, because I'm deeply in love with H, and can see myself going into a deep depression without him, and it will really help to be able to look back and remember why I wanted to go, and be able to feel good about not having to put up with certain things anymore.

Anyone who usually reads this might think, after all that's happened, why would you want to????? But after H comes back from being gone somewhere, we usually have sex. I have written before, that right now we're getting along well, but even when we're not, I still like to do that with him, it's just something I like. It used to be especially true for the reason that, during the day, he isn't very affectionate.

i'm still at work.

it's funny, it isn't my house, but i dislike the idea of them all being right now in the place that i kept quiet and reasonably clean all weekend.

also, i didn't miss H

I just didn't wan to be alone with my son because of my health issues.

Well, they are coming home today.

This weekend, I got used to having a quiet house, and am not really looking forward to their return. H, I miss...it's just the kids and their noise.

But after all SD has done to annoy me, I realized that I don't really know why I complain on her so much, because she's actually the only person in my life who actually wants to spend time with me, and who actually gives me much affection.

they left for NY a couple hours ago. To be honest with you, I'm already bored.

I took my son to kindercare, got myself some take-out and came home.

Well, yesterday H told me that he doesn't plan to be in this house in one year..I told him that he said that last year. He also said that he's probably going to have his green card in a few months. I didn't reply. There really is no point in asking him what he plans to do next.

Not only does SD get to go to NY this weekend, she also gets to go to Chicago soon.

She planned a road trip, and is telling H that she is going with her friend Stacy, and Stacy's boyfriend. Just the three of them.

Yesterday H was cleaning out SD's car.
Of course, he doesn't expect her to do it herself.
She came back, driving his car, and parked again, right in front of the garage, blocking me. She brought out a new Chanel dress, kind of a black cocktail dress, saying that she bought it at Macy's for 70 dollars, and it had been 450 before.....

H asked me again last night, whether or not I had found out from my ex, if he could take our son so that I could go to NY. I told him that he never called me back. The truth is, I didn't even ask. I know that my ex would say no. I don't feel like going crazy trying to find arrangements at such a short notice.

The day started normally, but then H came and started telling me what a jerk SD's boss was. She was late, and when she came into the restaurant, he told her to go home, he was sick of her being late all the time. Then he called later and left a message that she is so irresponsible.....I don't really see how that makes him a jerk. I would be tired of her being late all the time, too.

Yesterday I was driving to get my son and I got a phone call from H. He said,
"Listen, can you make arrangements for your son to stay somewhere this weekend so that you can come to New York with us- but if, and only if, you can make arrangements for your son"