Yeah so I thought I just had nothing left foe BM- didn't care enough to hate her- I was soo wrong!@!

Today I took SD to psych. app. and discussed some of my concerns also- well it's funny cause all of my concerns were validated

I was trying to put myself in his place to help GC, and I realized-how difficult it has to be to be him.
I know our end isn't easy by any means but I think I appreciate how complicated he has to feel- I worry about keeping my kids safe and happy, dinners, lunches calendars that stuff.....

I was reading a post, and am curious as to how everyone met their SO?

okay so SD(15) came home from BMs again today(BM actually did take her back to finish visit after her drama, ),As usual there were promises and plans- a shopping spree, six flags, and all that- they were supposed to be camping during the 4th so we couldn't take her to do our traditional thing cause we have had her the last several years in a row- mostly because BM rarely does anything for any holiday- except a self pitty party!

Here we are again, background here: BM was married to C, she divorced C on paper to get more money from state(a statement she has made a few too many times as I know it)- well they had started living seperately here lately due to legal problems, and C finally got himself a new girlfriend( I am almost happy for him- maybe he will get his life straight again) and this all happens while SD is there for her summer visit- BM is going nutso again-threatening to harm self, harrassing Cs GF( feel sorry for her - I remember that), has been popping pain pills way more than prescribed then has been known to drink on top of them(has been out of 3 week script for more than a week due to over use),and has again effected SDs thinking- SD has finally been trying to get her mind straight through counseling, and making progress but I see how this all weighs on her like an elephant. SD is feeling responsible for BM again, I remind her that before BM, her concern lies with brother, and that BM will make her choices and is acting in a usual(if there is such a thing) manner which I do remember from when I and DH got together-

How many of us here have a "step"parent, and what were our relationships with these people like?

I have been reading other blogs and have often wondered if we get into it partially because we have experienced it first hand(other role),

since late friday afternoon SD has been with BB, SD has called a few times about me dropping off stuff she forgot- no biggie, and I do have to do most of the grown up stuff like making it to SD apps, and making sure to get more meds over there cause as for par- BB does not have a clue how to budget at all- I swear the female could get a billion dollars and have nothing to show for it within a year!!!

So for those of you who didn't read the old stuff last summer BM took SD for the first week- we sent the food of course, then the next visit lasted one day (instead of two weeks) the next less than a day, so SD left tonight for the first visit----- anyone feeling my anxiety?

ALL of you deserve a (((hug))) for being so strong.
I think we all need a reminder that we can't expect ourselves to be perfect in these most imperfect situations, we are human even before (step)moms.

I feel awful since it has been so long but I hope everyone understands- time has been running out on me lately. our son came on the 16th, we are both home and healthy. Everyone is adjusting to the new guy, and we are so happy even at the night feedings!