I owe many thanks to the BM in my family. She was awful enough to make me seek a place to turn to and so I happened this site. I have many wonderful friends from here that have carried over into my everyday life. I love those friends and would do anything to help them. So, BM, I thank you for that. She was stupid enough to act like an immature child while her and SDA were married, which caused a divorce, so now he is mine. Thank you, BM, for being an idiot. I must also thank her for being a worthless mother. She has given her kids to me, is allowing me to adopt them and call them my own. Thank you, BM, for having no love for your children. The last thing I need to thank BM for is for treating her kids the way she did, because they needed me more than they would ever need her, so thank you, BM, for treating your kids like yesterday's trash.

For my MySpace friends, this will not be posted there, it's best left here, but you can message me on their if you want more details.

An issue cropped up last Thursday that sealed my husband's and his kids fate. I had to work, he had to go out of town for a one day job, so all three kids were in daycare. DHS shows up at my house the next day. Needless to say, we are trying to figure out what the hell is going on. I was on my lunch break talking to Sir Dumb A** at the time the lady pulled up to my house. She proceeds to tell SDA that she received a complaint stating that SDA kicked SS8 in the head. ?!? So SDA calls SS8 into the room and asks him why he would say something like that and he says "Because you did daddy". SDA has a fit and says why are you lying on me? SS8 turns around and tells him because he won't give him what ever it is that he wants. The DHS lady told him that he isn't going to get what he wants, laughed at him and left.

Hi all, how are you? Alright, lets begin by considering something. A little definition that can change a lot of lives. It called a "parent". That's right, what is a parent? Well,Webster says" 1 a: one that begets or brings forth offspring b: a person who brings up and cares for another. So what does beget mean well, according ot Webster 1 : to procreate as the father : sire 2 : to produce especially as an effect or outgrowth. So, according to these definitions, if you bring up or care for another, you are a parent. Also, only a father can beget a child. So what does this mean? It may mean that fathers have more rights than initially thought. It means that if you care for or bring up a child, you are a parent. That means that the same laws that apply to the sperm and egg donor apply to you when the child is in your care. Do you truly want to be held responsible for their behavior without attempting to first control it? Here's what I tell my oldest SS, "if you can't control your behavior yourself, I'll control it for you." Simple as that. It's not so simple to control it, but by the grace of God, or whatever you believe in, I'll try until I die! ANd so should you. You're the parent, the adult, the rule maker. Those kids should know that if they want anything they had better be nice to the bonus parent!

Hi Everyone! I'm caught between excitement and fear here! We got the court papers today. By email. I'm going to post the email from the attorney:

Hey there – here’s the agreed order – BM has signed it – if it looks good to you and you return the fourth and fifth page signed it will be done. If you have any suggestions for corrections just let me know and I will ask BM if she’s good with them too and we can make changes if you two can agree on them.

Okay, so I would post on myspace, but I have family on there and the last thing I need is my mother calling.

This will most likely be long.

Sat. was my birthday. I wake up and my DH is already up. The baby is still sleeping, which is scary, and SS8 is making a huge amount of noise in the kitchen doing G*d knows what.

Have any of you ever heard of B.A.C.A? They once saved me when I younger.

You can find a myspace link here http://www.myspace.com/bacasanantonio.

I sent them a message directing them to Madison's page and here to see that we are all trying.

First let me say thank you to all of you who have supported me in this and to let you know how much it meant to me.

I was up until about 3am last night, feeling sick and worried and balling my eyes out. I don't like to wait. Waiting is one of the worst things that someone can make me do and I have a very active imagination, so a million senarios were running through my mind. Turns out all to no avail.

The last post I posted said how wonderful everything was going here. Well, the beginning of this week marks the worst days of being a step parent thus far. Bear with me because I am still trying to wrap my mind around this myself.

Just wanted to say that everything is B-E-A-utiful here. No drama, no arguing, fighting, calling daddy. And DH has been home a whole 3 days thus far!! YEA!! Let's keep our fingers crossed that it stay

Okay, I know this isn't exactly about step-parenting but aside from Myspace, which most of my family is a part of, this is the only safe place I have to go.

So it all starts b/c I ask DH to spray the air freshner we have in the bathroom b/c I can smell his shit in the bedroom, where I was trying to put up clothes. He make the comment "How bout I just spray you on the head?" So I step into the bathroom and say "Excuse Me?" and threw a small tube of muscle rub at him, it hit the wall and then the floor, and so he picks it up and throws it at me and actually hits me with it. Well then I picked up anything that was on the sink and threw at him until I hit him with one of those 10 count cotton pad holders, real small, real light. He starts whining and then gets mad and shoves the shelf over that is in front of him. I started telling him "that's bullshit, that right there is bullshit." He tried to say something and I said "No, F**k that." and got in my vehicle and left. I did not get maybe 5 minutes down the road before I decided that he needed to be the one to leave for a bit, not me. So I get home and tell him to leave. Well, that starts a whole new set of problems. Suddenly we are not compatible, he wants a divorce, I need to be the one to leave, he is moving HIS paycheck into another account, I am a bitch, this is his house, yadda yada yadda. So I call my dad and tell him he needs to come get this asshole of my house.

First of all let me say thank you so much to all of you who have supported me and helped me to realize that I did right.

To answer a few questions some of you ladies asked:
DH has wanted me to put him in a bootcamp for a couple of weeks now so when I called him about this to tell him, he stands behind me 100%. See, two, maybe three weeks ago, I had to take a trip out of state to get SS9 from my mother, who was keeping them for two weeks like she has every summer that I have had them, because he was threatning to hurt my 3 year old brother. (Long Story)

Hi everyone, I know I have not been on here in a while and I'm sorry, the summer has been so very busy with trip after trip.

Anyway, Monday morning I woke up to my 11month old, we'll call him "D" for short, all happy and ready to face the world so I get him out of his crib, which is in another room, by the way, and cuddle him while I make him his Decaf Coffee(don't ask ) and then I say him down with his sippy and went to brush my teeth and such, which has been a morning ritual since I stopped breastfeeding.

Okay, so most of you know my situation by now, and so I ask you, what the hell am I getting myself into? SS8 lies continously and no matter what I have tried, it hasn't worked. We have tried nasty tasting things in his mouth, sentences, soap, spankings, groundings, ect...

What a week. We just finished moving into our new house last weekemd and have spent the week unpacking. Of course our homephone # changed and this time, I had it unlisted but my cell number hasn't changed. So Friday I get a call from BM's attorney. She claims that BM is ready to sign the papers that states no visitation and that she also wants to add that she can't object if I want to adopt them. BUT.. ( you seen that comming, didn't you?) BM also wants DH to give up visitation of SD and to agree on no child support since she is raising one and we are raising 2 of her kids. She also wants DH to agree to not objecting to someone adopting SD.

Well, I heard from BM today, even though it is a direct violation of the court order. She called in lieu of her attorney b/c said attroney is "out sick." We had been leaving messages for attorney to expain some things to us and to send the documents for our attorney to look over before we sign. Attorney must have told her client (BM) and this is why she she is calling and what she says