sixxnguns's blog

I've been away for awhile just trying to sort myself out and get myself together mentally....A month ago I went to the doctor complaining of certain symptoms that I thought were diabetes and it turns out I've been stressing myself out so much I'm causing my body to get all whacked out. So my doctor put me on an anti depressant/anti anxiety...it's a new medication called Pristiq and it has done so many wonderful things for me in the past month. I've lost weight, I don't emotionally eat anymore and I'm not letting BM get to me anymore!

So FH decided to go ahead and call CPS...they said she's not doing anything illegal. A 5 year old can be outside while you watch from a 2nd story apartment window, I guess and it's ok for a child not to bathe unless their hair is greasy...One more for BM I guess..this woman gets away with everything.

FH is thinking about contacting CPS about BM...FSS showed up here with no clean clothes, cheap flip flops, and filthy. He then goes on to tell us that his mom lets him go outside WITHOUT her to ride his bike. They live on the 2nd floor of an apartment building and she claims to watch him from the window...now from MY experience with CPS I was told you cannot leave a 5 year old outside UNATTENDED and watch them from the window...you just wouldn't have time to get to them if someone snatched them up. I'm wondering if CPS will think he's just reporting her out of revenge...

I had FH call legal aide to find out if they can help them with the money issues with BM(the loan payments she's not making although she LEGALLY supposed to! And get some advice about the child support she basically STOLE last year while he cared for his son fulltime) well...their initial letter to him said they couldn't help him cause it wouldn't be ethical since they were helping BM(bowel movement) but he could pay 30 dollars to get a half an hour consultation with a lawyer they would refer to him and than after that he would have to figure out something payment wise with the lawyer...so I told him I would pay the 30 dollars but he had to call and get the address where to send it, he THAN found out that he COULD be helped for a 300 dollar retainer fee! I told him to take the consultation first and than if he still needed a lawyer than we could come up with the 300 dollars to get the lawyer, I think the child support issue is a civil matter but we have MORE than enough proof where I think we could get that money back, including letters back and forth from BOTH sides lawyers admitting she TOOK that child support. We're going to try this ONE more time...I told him if we don't win this time, we just need to let it go because everyone is so biased here...everyone sympathizes with the poor BM. Yeah, POOR BM...she can't even give her own child a bath! She can't afford to make her loan payments but she could afford 100 some dollar portraits of golden child at Sears! I have compiled ALL the legal paperwork from the custody case and am writing up a list of questions for him to ask the lawyer, he's not really legal savvy, I try to be..lol..

After this weekend and money issues that have been going on for months, I am going to sit down with FH and tell him I can't marry him next year. I just can't marry into this mess that he has brought on himself. I did well for myself when I was on my own. And when I got my job when I moved here I told him that I would pay for half the bills and help out with groceries and such. Well I'm putting WAY more in than I should be. He makes enough money with the job he has and the free lance job he has but he seems to blow alot of money. While I'm buying ALL the groceries and saving money to move next summer. I'll stay engaged to him but I won't marry someone who can't pay their half of the bills. He can't afford to pay his satellite bill but won't get rid of it. I won't pay it, I don't even watch it! I am going to help him get a consultation with a new lawyer about some issues with BM but after that he's on his own. I just can't see myself getting sucked into all this bull, I'm too independent to marry someone else's debts when I have my own! And I make enough money at my job that I can get by on my own. Anyway, I've been thinking about this for weeks, and tried to talk to him about it and all he says is, it's just nerves. No, my heart knows when something isn't right. And I feel this isn't right and I'll marry him when he can learn to manage his money a little better, and maybe after we move out of state away from all this crap.

So precious FSS had his birthday last week and BM invited Fh's sister and his parents, but didn't invite FH...he was hurt and angry but I told him to let it go....It was his weekend to visit this weekend, she sent him here unbathed and smelly...FSS told us he hasn't taken a bath in 2 days...so FH put him in the bathtub and his underwear were filthy, and I mean like he doesn't bother to clean himself up after he goes to the bathroom...

This woman keeps sending FSS with underwear that are way too small! Plus he's overweight...we weighed him and checked a growth chart and he's 5 but is fitting into size 8 pants around the waist only...FH asked FSS if his mother had boughten him new underwear, FSS replies with "Mom said you never send money to take care of me" This woman is stupider than I thought!

I guess her dad is sick of being a free daycare so now she's calling FH's sister thinking she'll get a free babysitter. Little does she know that FSIL is going to make her sign a contract and PAY HER when she watches FSS...I knew this would all happen, I called it before the custody papers were signed.

was actually good! FSS and I actually got along well We did sit him down and tlak to him about lying and telling stories...and he seemed to take it well. I noticed that he had these white marks on his fingernail beds, and looked it up online...it looks like he may have some kind of vitamin deficency, I told FH if he still has those marks the next weekend he's here to take him into the dr to see what they are.

I'm so angry I'm shaking...WHY does she insist on dragging me into crap that doesn't pertain to me?? She is blaming me, my BD and fiancee for FSS's regression and his bad behaviors. And says "I'm glad